Hi guys! Thanks for posting! I haven't been posting lately. I sometimes come on and read a few threads (mal, ellie, shiny). I find myself depressed sometimes after hanging out on the board. I don't know if anyone else ever feels like that. I get to thinking about "the old R" and the bomb, etc., and it becomes an obsession again, thinking about it, "feeling" it.
I try to stay away sometimes, but I still check out the newcomers and MLC, and this forum. When I see someone with a similar sitch., I get a bit sad.
On a lighter note, the auction ends in a couple of days, hopefully I'll win! We are leaving HI in about 10 weeks. We are sad about it, but are looking forward to the new base, and H's retirement in about a year and a half.
The anniversary of the bomb is coming up, Dec. 2. The anniversary of the day he started saying ILY again is coming up after the new year. I asked H on the phone (he's away in another country again) "can you believe it's been almost a year since, you know". He didn't say much, but I got a great email telling me how much he loves me, is happy and full, and complete. AND... how happy he is that I put up with his crap and stuck by him through it all.
Woohoooooo.... things are going well here!
I also see myself as a much stronger person now. Much stronger than I ever was, I think. I think that's part of the reason I have dreams about my XH and the things he did to me. I'm pissed at myself a little bit for not standing up to him. But, I don't beat myself up over it anymore, I just know I'm a different Jill now, and I have a great life!
I hope you guys are doing ok. I'm about to pop over to Ellie's thread to see if she's doing ok w/the fires.
Shiny, I'm going to check out your thread too. Thanks for popping over!
