how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

that's good advice, pearl. i know it doesn't mean anything to talk to her, and it certainly couldn't hurt me to at least understand the legal side of things. just in case.

i do have plans tonight, i have a meeting at my church. i'm going on a service trip to new orleans next month - by myself, no one i know already is going! - and have an orientation meeting for that tonight. should be interesting.

i know the process is about me. that doesn't stop me from missing my H. i've spent more time with my girlfriends in the last 3 weeks than i have in the last 3 years. i still feel lonely. i keep myself busy and i feel good and can see improvements in my overall mood. but that doesn't stop me from being sad from time to time or hoping that he'll call or write or reach out to me.