figgy, kat, bnd--sorry, somehow I didn't see your posts until just now! thank you. I understand what you're saying. I do some energy work, as does D14 (who's far better at it than I am) and so I am very aware of the effect of negative thoughts and projections, and the power of visualization. now--if I just knew what to visualize!
actually, today is the first day of Lent. Very cool thing--my daughter was the one giving me ashes in church this morning! I've decided the timing is perfect--my Lenten practice will be to try to look forward instead of just watching my feet so I don't fall. reconnect with some dreams. follow my bliss. it's as good a spiritual practice as any.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012