Bradley Your wife is answering their questions this way because
THEY ARE NOT AT THE TOP OF YOUR PRIORITY LIST
and your damn well right I would answer the same way because until you deserve for them to care about you, I wouldn't want them to wither because it is painfully clear that you are more important to yourself than they are and as long as you keep putting yourself on a pedastal high about them and your career high above those of a humble "cabinet maker" you will continue to disappoint them.
Buy some disneyworld passes now so when you mangage to crunch them in your busy busy schedule in the life of a busy and highly trained cardian surgeon, you can take them to Disney World and become the Disney dad you are obviously destined to be
exchange pleasentries while they ask for money for x,y and z remember not to remember the names of their friends or when their band concert was or is complain about how their mom stole them from you while you put off being able to see them because you were too busy to make it over this weekend
bow out then and let someone else be dad because they are only little once and they need someone they can depend on
your pity party is a drag and your determination to make your wife the bad guy because you MADE her be the sole parent for this long because other things took precident
all I can say is I have an advanced degree too I missed somethings in my children's life out of necessity NEVER because I didn't want to give up a day at work papers have been turned in late because I needed to ruba washcloth on the head of my fevering boy I have missed work because it was doughnuts with mom I have lost a job because I refused to compromise my vacation time that we had been planning for
but it is clear that no one and nothing is more important than your plan
you want someone to say it is OK to pursue this "dream"
Bradley...it is ok for you to pursue your dreams let yourself detach and drift slowly out of those kidlets' lives they need a dad let someone willing to be a dad then be one for them without hindering them with the guilt you will place on them, without blaming their mother for your inability to care about them
you love them like you love a pet, it sounds
a pet that someone else takes care of and cleans up after and walks and plays with
for a parent, there is no choice the fact that you are making there be one says mountains about you