It's complicated but it's mine #28

[mishka422]

We didn't have any snow up around Atlanta today. There was a little up in the mountains. Did they get snow in South GA? I hadn't heard.

[kat727]

Time for picture taking and maybe putting some in the freezer! Old boyfriend is working still so not sure if he will get to call. That I feel a little down tells me something.

kat

[mishka422]

What does it tell you?

[kat727]

That I was really looking forward to talking to him. He sent me a text as soon as he got off but it was after I had gone to bed so I didn't get it until this morning.

I did end up talking to another old boyfriend that I reconnected with this past summer. He was cleaning out his basement and I kept telling him what to toss. Not that he listened. lol Anyway, it was good to get these thoughts out. Still have very strong feelings for flirt guy and until that gets to where he needs to be, I think I am ok having some fun after all.

kat

[mishka422]

Good for you!!

[kat727]

I think I have way too many old boyfriends in my life right now but at least I am friends with them so I can talk about stuff. How else can I talk out where I have been and where I want to go?

Friend from last night kept saying I probably had a ton of guys wanting me. Told him not that I know of. One I am basically shy so come off as a bit aloof. Two, I have been married for so long, I kept those barriers up. I am learning how to take them down again.

I also figured out that it is possible to like people in very different ways but still have a relationship with them.

kat

[MichelleLT]

Those are all very astute observations.

It took me more than a year after S to start taking those barriers down. Til then the thought of dating was just bizarre and strange. I still sometimes fight with them. I find I am more aloof and reserved, I am definitely afraid of being burned again.

[kat727]

Gee at 45 does that mean I am growing up?? lol

My friend last night also said I was so far ahead of him with what I wanted in my life. He just wanted to party and drink when he went off to school and I was already planning my whole college time and things I wanted to accomplish.(I am two years older than he is).

Did I mention old boyfriend from 4 hours away said the other night that he doesn't ever remember breaking up(though of course he knows we did)so we never have. Still together after 27 years! What a goof!!

kat

[MichelleLT]

LMAO Nice

[kat727]

Is it bad of me that I am taking my phone to bed with me so I can answer it when he gets done working? 15 hour days can't be fun, I don't care what you are doing.

I sound like a giddy teenager, I have regressed.

kat