She was actually a very attentive, good mother (just a lousy wife) until about 18 months ago. Our daughter (again, not biologically mine) turned 14 and it may have triggered something in wife. Wife started going out more openly. She left condoms out in the open, brought home bottles of liquor, started flaunting things.
At this point I started isolating myself, just to get away from the reminders, and I believe that made it worse. I was out of work for a while, didn't talk to her, stayed in the guest bedroom 90% of the time.
Wife's mother was recently widowed and she also has a similar history as wife does, which makes me fear for D15's future if I leave. She's at an impressionable age.
D15 and S13 are both very confused at this point. I haven't spoken to nor been in the same room with wife since Sunday morning, when she berated me for Valentine's day and I left. She seems to be putting on a show of being giggly, taking late night phone calls (master bedroom is just below guest room, so I can hear muffled noises) and pretending she's going to put me into a shelter and move someone else in.
I should be clear on the fact that I'm not a perfect husband. I've never hit her or slept with other women, but for years I worked a lot of overtime (in hindsight I was trying to get away from the home situation) which probably made her feel neglected. I should also point out that she has never had an "affair" per se. From what I can tell, she's just into "hooking up" at the bar or the casino and having casual sexual contact with strangers. She has always preferred "one night stands" to relationships (see previous entries). Her changes recently make me suspect that there might be more than this presently, but I don't care enough to snoop and just hope to keep my sanity for a few more weeks until I can get enough money to vanish.
That's my story in a nutshell. It's a strange life.
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
