Dream..Send Me A Sign..Turn Back the Clock

[LolaL]

Thanks, but I am not holding my breath. Knowing my luck, it will be another excuse. Too busy at work. Didn't get the papers in time.

It's not that I really want this divorce, but I also don't want to live like this anymore. If that is what it has to be, then I would just rather get it over with so I can put it behind me.

This is affecting me in a way that I cannot explain. I have been having nightmares about my stepmother, who was very abusive, and who I have not spoken to in many years. She is my father's ex-wife, the woman who raised me after my mother died. I am not sure why all of a sudden I am dreaming of her, or if it means that I am just stressed out. But I hate it. I would rather dream of the SG, and I hate that too.

I wish there really was a way to clean the slate, and just start over, but the fact is there really isn't. No matter what, this will affect the rest of my life.

Sigh...