Ok, so today is a new day!!..
In the last week and a bit its truly been a roller coaster ride!.. REALLY DEPRESSING moments.. I am about as close to rock bottom as they go. I think the rock bottom will be when my W and I sit to tell our children what is happening.

As of right now, my W wants to protect them from this. I dont know why becasue she wants this, but I am not going to rock the boat any longer. Patience.. Trying to learn this. Dont react..

Any who, I recieve a email this morning from my W.
" You Were odd last night…..seriously have you taken to drinking in bed?
This is because I just acted like me.. Smiled, giggled a bit what was on TV. W was tired, she wanted to sleep and I had the night light on.. she asked me to turn it off.. I politly and jokingly said, nah... I can see the TV better with the light on..
Then I said, "well you can always leave and sleep somewhere else ? She responds, you want me to leave? I said, sure... I love the big bed to myself..

The 180 here is that she used to tell me that she would leave because I was always pestering her. Now, I tell her to leave, and she didnt go. She stayed... lol....

Anyway, I took 25 minutes to respond to the email and only said "see weed".
She quickly replied back saying Really ??? wow!!..

I am not making anything of this. But I can tell you that I havent received an email from her in awhile.. Its usually about the kids..
I know that I need to step back and just be aware. Its a long road. Stay on course as I have witnessed here.

Another thing, W tells me that her friend and her husband want to go to dinner with us.. I said sure thing but that I would like to bring the kids with us, or I need to bring a book with me because the conversations that we have at dinner put me to sleep!... I laughed as I said that.. I know I confused her. The fact that I said I want the kids there. I never do that..
I dont care either if the other couple wants them or not.. I know they love my kids so they will be ok with it.. They dont have kids of thier own and love being with mine..

Half way done the DR book.. Really good.. This email from her was one of my goals that I wrote down.. Maybe the DB, NC smile, and take care of you can really work..
I know its early and really hard not to get excited..
Just thought I would share..

M 43 W 43
S15 S 12 D 10
ILYBNILWY ( Dec 2009)
Sleeping separate rooms April 8 2010.
Sep as of 07/14/2010
W moving out 07/31/2010
No OM confirmed ( yet)