yes... sometimes I wonder if its like some sort of golden key. Like if I put myself all in to just that... honestly... then she would see a side of me that she has not seen before and may feel something different about me. dunno.
Do it for you man. If she sees it great.....if not then that's all on her. Her loss.
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still having a pity party for me and all that.
but I am desperately lonely. I live in a house by myself in a town with no friends..
We all have our moments, it takes some work to break free of them at times.
I know you can't quite see it yet, but you have a wonderful opportunity here. In a town with no friends? Change things up, get out a meet some new friends. People do it every day.
It is incredibly easy to get stuck while going through all of this.
Taking a look inward and truly getting to know yourself again is pretty important and it sounds like you are doing a bit of that.
Where you place your focus and how you perceive you and the world around you is huge. These tend to become skewed at times while going through this. You have to have some self awareness here and keep yourself in check at times.
If your thoughts are always focused on what's lacking that's probably what will continue to show up in your life. You have to make a shift here and yes it's tough and no it doesn't happen in a day, but it can and does happen if you work at it.
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hey maybe I need to join the VFW or somthing like that and just start hanging out with some of the old dudes in town.. din't think of that but that might be a good thing to do.
LOL! Whatever floats your boat man.
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I do not think I have grown much yet... but I have had a lot on my plate... all at once...
Give it time, and keeping working at it. Change things up a bit and start out small, it will quickly add up. Just don't make the mistake of waiting for change just to magically appear. It's work but there are so many positives to take away from all of this.
