maybe it was a mistake

[nightshade]

Good morning Pam:):)
Overriding the emotional side became a must long time ago when I was a kid. It was survival mode kind of thing.
Since then it became easier to use it on my life. Doesn't mean it's more healthy. Sometimes I do bottle up the emotions way tooo much. It's usually the negative emotions, the positive ones I let out.
So well, this morning things are nice and caring. I know it takes him a while to realize he went in overdrive. And then usually he tries to make everything great as a way of apologizing.
Still I will need to address this at some point.
Our life could be just perfect right now, and still, why am I starting to feel like maybe it's better alone than to have to deal with this kind of stress on a regular basis?
I know I will feel better soon. But for now this is bringing back many memories, not exactly pleasant.
I really think Rui would benefit from counseling, but that's a no-no, and I have to respect that.We do need to ge some ground rules here.
Oh well I'll probably won't come here much today, have lots of work to finish and the kids want to rent a movie. But I'll be back
Hugsies
nightshade