maybe it was a mistake

[nightshade]

Hey Pam, followed your advice.
He came home and I didn't push the issue. I did however let him know that I would like to talk, and gave him the control of being the one choosing when he feels it's the best time.

I feel quite hurt by this. When he decided he wanted to work on our marriage, I made the decison of never hang what happened over his head. I have kept that decision. However, I'm the one feeling like I have something hanging over my head. Either things are fine and I'm a good girl or else he threatens to go ( in a veiled way of course.. his way )
This is more damaging because he knows my past. He knows how it felt to have another threat over my head... either you're a a perfect little girl, cute and well mannered or we take you back to your birth parents. IT felt a lot like being a dog. And he knows that. It hurts much more because of that.
ANyway thanks for being there. Hope David comes and says hello to all of us.
Hugsies
nightshade