I'm sorry you're going through angst about NY woman. It sounds like you really connected with her.
It's really silly. I feel like I'm in high school again. I do think we connected, but she has stopped texting me. Monday, I checked the phone all day like school boy, to see if she had called. I think we were both aware the situation was getting inappropriate. Honestly, my reaction has truly taken me by surprise. I've been in a R with my W for nearly two decades, and been completely faithful.
There is an opportunity here for me to understand my W's EA, and PA if there is one. Some of the angst I'm feeling is some part guilt, but really the worst is realizing how empty my M has become and how my emotional needs have not been met for a long time. This is something like how my W feels. I knew this already, but it's something else to experience it.
It also says something about my co-dependence, and need for companionship. I need to focus on myself and my kids.
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