having some second thoughts about job...

[Jack_Three_Beans]

I did that for 9 years... now I am doing it every day... now do I take even that much more of a sacricfice? how much sacrifice? is there an end to it?

Go get a beer, chill for about 10 minutes, and re-read that all by itself, and tell me what type of man said that.

what about self respect and self love? shouldn't these things matter?

They do. Are you your job?

shouldn't you love the job that you do?

I do not know many people who...can say that. I am envious of those who can.

what if she chooses a life with him (or already has and just will not tell me)... he is already living in a house right near them now...
but the sacrifice... what if all I get is weekends anyhow... I can always come there for the weekends I get them.

What if dinosaurs got cloned and made a comeback? Could we ride them, would they have a Dinosaur Jesus?

Making fun of the 'what if' not your concern. You can 'what if' yourself into not bothering to get up in the morning or not even trying if you REALLY want to.

how do I get back into my kids life when I move up there?

...

really?

You DO. You just do. Cause if you don't... they will remember it. And if she and you do not work out...someone else will pick up your slack.

or do I take the job in the town where they are. working much harder for less pay... I suppose putting it that way makes the choice seem easy... right? (go there)

Look, man is there a position in a nearby town?

For me...

money is money, it is something to buy stuff, and more stuff, WEEE!!! More stuff!
It is STUFF!

Stuff is status...fukc status. Its inflated and not really what matters and makes us meanly like ants.

More stuff or more time?

but she has taken them... she has made it such that they are getting used to a life without me.

And YOU might contribute to that choice.

right?

A life without you?