J Not only did I waste 7.5 years of my life with someone who wasnt worth it...but that time I will never get back...I could have spent it finding someone else that was better...who had morals and family values.
Read this sentence you wrote out loud to yourself. And then ask yourself, what the heck do you mean by family values? The type of person you want - I'm assuming it's someone who is politically conservative - would stay waaaaay clear of you based on what you've written here.
If they have family values, they would want someone who is stable, clear thinking, and positive. You just seem all rage right now.
I hope you listen to the advice of the other people who are posting here. When they tell you to take a hard look at yourself and own up to the responsibility of your actions and take charge of your impulses, you might move forward. Honestly, your thread really frightens me, in that a 32 year old man has such high school reactions. I'm especially concerned about the casual way you throw around the claim that your wife would have you murdered if you ruined her gravy train.
Honestly, if you thought she were capable of murder, you'd be at a police station right now and not posting. So the over-the-top emotional reaction is something that you need to think about. Why are you harping on this?
I'm asking because in my early 20s, I did have a friend who was killed, and it was the most tragic thing to ever happen to me or her family. I assume that it's never happened to you before bc that kind of pain is no something to be joked about.
