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[awest1217]

Still nothing from H, and yes I believe he is mad about me confronting him about his password. He gets so mad about that stuff, but honestly if he is going to ignore me again that is fine with me. I just get my answer sooner because he is not going to ignore me for weeks and then decide "I missed you" like before and say "I want to come home" because this time the answer will be no. I am not going to have this. He knows what he needs to do and I am not going to expect him to go cold turkey and come home and not talk to her. He won't do it so if he wants to come home, he needs to ween now. He doesn't think that far into the future and will decide at the last minute, probably the Friday of the weekend he needs to move because he hates making decisions and this one is huge. Either lose me for forever or lose OW for forever. He has had now 11 months for figure it out...and still the same answer. Decision time is here and he honestly thinks that no matter what I am going to welcome him back with open arms...

Of course I am all hard right now because H is totally going dark again for no real reason, but when it comes to it who knows what I will be able to do. I did tell him once we were goign to divorce so I guess i can do it again. The difference this time is if I say he can't come home, then he has no where to go. It slightly breaks my heart, but he brought this on himself.

I am going to try to start compiling boxes so if H decides to not come home, or just never makes a decision, I can box everything up and dump it wherever he ends up. I will also need to prepare a letter to my in-laws about what is going on and ask them about some of their things that we have been using; a table and chairs, a couch, and the piano. I don't want to keep it unless it is keeping it for forever because I don't want H to say in a year, I want that back.

The end is near. I can definitely feel it. It is kind of a relief the more I think about it. Yeah either choice with have its obstacles, but they can be fixed and it won't be limbo. YIPPIE!