how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, pearl! nothing is worse than "i told you so!" most of my friends assure me of the same thing, but i still find myself attempting to justify to my friends and even my family why i would WANT to work things out, especially when i feel like we go through this breakup thing every 12-18 months.

i also know that i understand our R and my H better than any of my friends or family, and that only the 2 people in a R can truly know all of what is going on...but it doesn't make it any easier to tell friends, "yup, we're going to try to work things out. AGAIN."

my H tells me his family is also questioning why he is in contact with me. not that they don't like me or anything like that. and my mom asks me on a daily basis if anything has changed. i told my sister we'd had dinner on sunday and she said, so are you back together? sigh.

no one can understand this kind of stuff except for other people going through the same thing.