how can i bring my H back to my parent's house for holidays or just to hang out when i'm secretly thinking, they must think i am a fool.
Now that I've talked about the D with some friends and family, I feel very awkward thinking about saying, "ya, we were about to D twice in 6 months, but we've worked it out and now I think we'll be happy forever". Forget awkward - stupid, naive, mean, controlling, guilty...lots of bad feelings.
The only thing comforting is that 3 different couples have said they were shocked we were talking D, because they thought we were such a good match. (ADHD creativity...I know how to fake a feeling when networking!)
Would I rather go and say I D? To them, yes. To others I'll meet in the future, colleagues, etc, no. To them, without explaining the whole story, I'm sure they'll think that either I or she was messed up. What a drag to feel! I don't want to blame anyone, but inside me I think our problem is more her "fault". That doesn't change the feeling of failure to success.
