Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Well,

I have not posted much, as I have just been scraping along on a day to day basis.

I met with new IC on Monday, and I really liked him. Felt an immediate connection, where he knows the 'Nice Guy' syndrome, and had very good things to say.

It was his discussion that made me realize that I don't have what I think is a 'complete' or 'comfortable' connection with my current IC, and maybe why I feel 'stuck'

I need to investigate that, and discuss with my IC, and decide if I want to try and switch IC's.

My other news brings me to my subject line, and why I am posting an update.

L called, and is scheduling our 4 way meeting for next Monday the 22nd, where we are supposed to hammer out the financial agreement for the D.

Just thinking about that, and discussing with L is making my stomach turn, and I am really anxious. I need to get this over, so I can figure out what do do next, but I am scared as well as to what will happen.

STBXW has a new love interest, so I must get this done, so I can move on. That's the only thing I can think of to help me past the current 'stuck'

I don't know what to expect in that meeting, sitting across from her and deciding my financial future..