Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

MHL,

Good to hear from you. Hope you had a good weekend.

I never placed the call, talked myself out it. I agree I would be tempted to expose all the BS I have uncovered that I am sure her family is unaware of. Can't see any good coming from such a disclosure. I'm still confused by the lack of any comm. from them. It maybe be just to ackward or uncomfortable for them. I hope they don't think I don't want anything to do with them. Nothing could be further from the truth.

Do not worry about dating, when the time is right and if it is right at the time you will know. To worry about it is just something else you do not need on your plate. It is hard to think that she is out there having all this "fun", it is not all fun and games right now for her, it will not take long, maybe a couple of more weeks and the party life will start to lose its flavor and at some point may even be something she does not care for.

I'm really not even thinking about dating right now but I must say if some hottie fell into my lap now or in the near future I'd be all over it. And yes when the time is right I'll know it.

With regard to her "fun" it all seems to revolve around guys. Seems to me her self worth is directly proportional to how much attention she gets from the opposite sex. It smacks as desperate to me. Who knows.

My goal moving forward is to improve on stopping myself when thoughts of her and what she is doing pop up in my head. I'm getting better at this daily.

On different note my weekend was a good one jam packed with good times with my kids. I wore them out on a hike at the park on Saturday and we attend a B-day party on Sunday at the neighbors. My nanny commented to me that kids seem so happy when they are with me. That felt great.

The party was interesting for a couple of reasons. As I mentioned in a couple of other posts I have felt as if I was a leper to all but one of my neighbors since this all started including these neighbors. I discovered that they don't understand what my wife is doing. They are baffled by the fact that we have been paying for the nanny's while the W has been out of work for five months. Not to mention they are just don't understand how she could give up on the marriage when young children are involved. She indicated they had no idea anything was really wrong. I told her I was baffled as well. I indicated to the female neighbor that there is more to the story than they have been told. I didn't get specific but she got the hint. She commented it takes two to tango.

Anyway it was nice to know that people recognize some of my wifes odd behavior/decisions independent of me telling them. I really wanted to expose what I know but I refrained from doing so.

It is hard to think that she is out there having all this "fun", it is not all fun and games right now for her, it will not take long, maybe a couple of more weeks and the party life will start to lose its flavor and at some point may even be something she does not care for.

I hope you are right about this. It will be interesting to see what the next few weeks bring to the table. My expectations are extremely low that any good will come.

Mediation session #4 on the 24th.