Jack - It would accomplish nothing except make me feel better for the moment but I do know that I would regret it later. I know that I am angry and that my anger is justified. I just need to find a way to realease. The more I think about this the more I realize that I think some of my anger is at myself for 1) allowing myself to be in this position 2) for being put in a position to find out who I am outside of my marraige. I know this is what i need to do but it hurts it frustrating. I do know that when all is said and done I will be a better man but right now as you can imagine I cannot see that.

I am also fustrated knowing that she did try in her own way. I was the ass in the M for a long time...make that a long time...and now that I have finally "got it" it sucks to think that I just may have lost the women of my dreams.

Glad to see your back Jack. I expect that you (as have quite a few others) will give me a reality wake up call. God Bless Jack...God Bless you.

"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
"Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!"
"Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans