Mach - I know you are right man. I do. I just feel so humiliated. I feel like less of a man; although I do try and tell myself that my M does not define me as a man. I'm still struggling with the guilt that I have since I do acknowledge that I did in several ways play a role in this. I am a man of character but I'm also human. I know I need to feel it and go through it..I know...I just wish I could somehow reach her. I wish I could hold her in my arm and tell her how much I love her. I WILL stand for her. I WILL stick this out. Why? Because I know that underneath all of this is the women that I love. I just hope and pray that she can come out of it without destroying the love that I have for her. Mach - I feel like a beaten man but I know that I am facing this with you and everyone on this board helping. May God Bless all of you!

I can forgive and I am working so hard to be a better man. I just struggle with the letting her go completely and this is something that I know I must do. It is sad but I must do it. How then can I still demonstrate love? How? How?

"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
"Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!"
"Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans