I agree--Valentine's Day wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. I played in my makeup for a few hours, wore a sexy new cashmere sweater, and danced around the house with my iPod playing party jams. Two other men in my life--my father and my brother--took me out for a really nice dinner, and we had a good time. My father is VERY unhappy with my H and keeps asking me "what is wrong with him." I wish I knew!! I am afraid that if or when H and I reconcile, my father will never be able to move past it. My father isn't a man of many words, but I'm sure he'd have some choice ones for my H. I guess I'll just cross that bridge if I ever come to it.
There is one thing about Valentine's Day that I wish I hadn't done--I wish I hadn't thought that he MIGHT call or text. I didn't hear a word from him, and I guess deep down I really knew I wouldn't. Still, there was this little part of me that thought I might hear from him. I hate that I thought that! However, I did hear from him at 8:45 the next morning. He sent a series of inane texts about the weather: Do you have a snow day today? How many snow days does your school district have left? What do the streets look like there? Is it still snowing? I wonder if this day-after trivial communication was meant to show me that he hadn't totally forgotten about me. Of course, I need to learn that I actually have NO IDEA what he's thinking!!!
I understand your stress over the waiting as well as the financial situation. Can you keep paying for things on your own if you don't file something in court? How do you think your H would react to this? Do you think it would drive him further away? Do you care if it does?
