What should I do?

[ericmsant2]

Trust and Lost - thanks man. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like I'm gonna puke and so want to go home and tell the kids why Mommy decided to stay late at work today. I'm so pissed. I'm taking a longer lunch to drive around and try and clear my head. I then have to run home and pick up the kids and take them to the mall like the responsible parent I am. I know that I was not always this way and so maybe some of this is reaping what I sowed for several years.

OP - My GAL activities are:
1) Working out at least 2 - 3 times a week
2) I have decided to go back to school and finish my degree (this will take some time but figured I would start the process now)
3) Reconnecting with my kids on a totally different level. I am now Mr. Mom. So I have to leave work at 5 to get home to make dinner. I could train my 16 year old to do this but I take this time to reconnect with them so I don't mind. What I mind is taht my W works a lot these days...some of the hour i'm sure are with OM, which totally pissed me off.
4) Have begun planning weekend events with the kids. Like I said earlier I am Mr. Mom
5) Joined a dance class. I was tired of being the only Puerto Rican that did not know how to dance salsa.
6) I have also found that reading these post helps to some extend. I've been catching up on Bworl post and his attitude is amazing.
7) Reestablish my spiritual relationship

That pretty much it so if anyone has any ideas please let me know. Oh...the one thing that I keep doing that I know I should not be doing is checking the phone bill on line. For some stupid reason I keep trying to convince myself that the OM is just an emotional thing, which will pass but eveytime I check the bill I totally flip out and loose a day or two just being pissed.

On a final note - any thoughts on if I should arrange to have OM W find out (not be me of course)...I'm thinking of a letter in her mail box that says her H is a cheating no good SOB. I expect every one is going to tell me not to do it.