i do want to have these "evil" feelings gone, but she is being so nasty towards me and we are both very stubborn in our ways....just found another 180 for me....let it go, stop dwelling and act "as if".
as do I...they're putting a tremendous strain on me physically. it sucks walking around angry all the time. at the same time, as I said in my own thread, I think I'm afraid that if I stop being angry, it's like I'm saying it's ok what my ex did.
