I admire you for the perseverence you've shown throughout all of this. I'm sorry it happened.
You are stronger than you might sometimes feel. You've been through one of life's most traumatic events...and now you're emerging from it.
Riding, hiking, skiing...good for you.
FWIW, I think your ex gave up on something that would have gotten much better had she made the decision to stay in there and work at it. Barring any unforseen circumstances I think someone else will see the good in you and want it for themselves. Patience, coupled with 'the work' will bring it about. Have a good day buddy.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
