You are still that person. It is still very raw and will be for a long time. It will be a long process, I know that you want this to be over but it is going to take time and there is a great saying on here that time is your friend.
I was in your very position. It took 18 months for my h to get into a place where he wanted to be friends with me. Before then he would hardly communicate (we didn't have children). Don't forget when they first leave they are in their fog and to them you are the big bad wolf. You need to stop doing things that reinforce this opinion that they have and you know what they are.
The biggest thing, you need to stop pursuing, stop the phone calls and texts. You need to stop all relationships talks; you can control yourself on this one if you choose to. It will help you as well as help the relationship as every time you do it, it pushes your h away.
Remember, you are a person whose confidence and security was shattered but that is not all there is of you. This is a moment in time. You will get your confidence and strength back. In fact it will be your strength and determination that will get you through this.
