I think I made some bad choices while I was in NY, and it's left me with some more emotional baggage. OR, I'm just overthinking everything. One thing for sure, returning home and returning to reality has been hard today.

Thursday, a woman I've known professionally over the past 10 years came to the show. She is a fan of our singer, and often comes to the shows when we are in NY. Afterward, we hung out with one of the other musicians. She of course wanted to know how I was doing, and the details of my sitch came out.

She texted me later, saying what a good time she had hanging out, and wanted to come to the saturday show, and maybe hangout again afterwards. I was thinking, GAL! Some platonic female attention could be good for me. So I said sure.

We ended up staying out together after the show until well after sunrise. Nothing physical happened, just lots of talking. But it was date like; romantic. It was the kind of thing were neither of us wanted to go, so we just kept saying lets go to another place.

I think we both sensed that it was getting out of hand.
I texted her on Sunday, told her thank you for a fun evening, and told her she had lifted my spirits. I haven't heard back from her.

Somehow, instead of making me feel better about myself, I find that I'm feeling much worse about my sitch in general. I know that some people here advise dating others; I'm not seeing this work for me at all.

Any thoughts?


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