I have done some really crappy things when I was flying high on mania however the bottom line is I am responsible for my actions not my disease...
Regardless of how "off" my emotions are, at the end of the day, I have to hold some amount of accountability for whatever havoc my mania has caused.
It's great that you were able to understand that you need to be responsible for the decisions you make. I guess my H doesn't feel that way. Like I said, I am not sure what goes through his head. But I find it hard to believe he can actually believe he can make other people responsible for his emotional state. I know I am not perfec, I've probably made a lot of mistakes. But I can not change myself completely to fit his needs.
One thing I just can not understand as much as I try is his rage against me. Why woud someone show so much hatred towards someone he said he loved so much?
My H would have the habit of drinking a lot of pain killers throught the day. Some people have suggested he was self medicating. Could this spark an episode?
