Not Me Ever...part 3

[Serenity13]

(((Awoken)))

I thank you for your kind words..I appreciate more then words can say that you aren't blaming her meds or lack thereof for the demise of your marriage...

If you don't mind, what led you to return to meds?

No I don't mind...Someone else asked me on a different thread and here is my response to them...

I would hit the bottom, go see my Doc, take my meds, hate my meds because I would gain weight or lose weight, a really high sex drive, no sex drive, emotionally trapped zombie moving through life yet not "feeling" anything, then I would feel much better, go off my meds, moods would be all over the map, mania would kick in and you know that is what every bipolar person is aiming for, then I would crash and burn and the horrific cycle would start all over again...

I did this for 20 years before I actually accepted that this would always be a part of me and I could start to live with it or continue to go against it...

I choose to live with it.

Basically I had had enough of fighting against it because I would always lose.