Here's my story..midlife crisis/infidelity

[January girl]

So the long and the short of my feelings are this...
I'm really sad/pissed that my H has walked away from
what I know was great between us-when it was great..
if that makes any sense at all. After going out this
weekend I remember how wonderful things used to be between
H & I.

Something funny happened on V-day. He stopped by to drop
off S1 and bring over the printer for my D9's science project
which...uggg...thank God THAT is over and done with.

Anyway, I was all cleaned up...(looking pretty if I do say so myself) and he just kept on staring at me. I asked him "Why he was acting like a cat in a room full of rocking chairs?" because he has been acting very nervous and jumpy...it's weird. He said "No reason." Then I started kidding around with him when he left because I gave him a hug goodbye and he acted like a robot so I teased him about it....he started laughing. Then he was STILL staring at me so I said "what, were you going to kiss me too?" just to be funny and he mumbled no but was looking at me like he had never seen me before. IT IS ALL SO STRANGE.

I think he has finally decided we are done for good. I don't
know but I think I maybe think that too. In my heart I just know that he is never coming back....which is so very sad because I DO love him with all my heart.

I know that I HAVE to go on...see friends...work on me...and probably start dating.

Please give me your thoughts friends.