My response to the thread was letting her know how it feels on the other side of the coin. I fought treatment, I fought the meds, I fought my demons, I fought the pain and the hurt and the emotions all over the place and only with acceptence did I become whole again...Her H hasn't hit bottom...He hasn't begun to accept what is within him, what will be with him until the day he dies and only when he does will he be able to become himself again.
Thank you Serenity, Thank you for sharing your experience with this illness. Yes, he has not hit rock bottom yet. I hope he never does, I hope he understands one day that this illness will be with him for the rest of his life. And that in order to get better, he needs to learn to accept the diagnosis.
His mother replied to me in an email that when he was on meds he felt he had no personality. A "zombie", and that he hated it. I can only begin to understand how can that feel, but 'm sure if he would of continued consulting with his Dr they would of found the right "mix" of meds. I don't know if it was because of his age but he didn't have the patients to continue and stopped.
He was engaged once with someone who would cut herself and had what I believe is Borderline Personality Disorder. He told me stories of her sleeping in a closet next to a dresser. They were both in therapy and from what he said, he was making good progress and she didn't like it. He got home one day and she had cut her arms so deep they reached the bone. He called an ambulance and she was taken to the sphyc ward. He left to his parents house and checked into a wphyc ward too. I don't know if you would call that rock bottom.
But of course something kicked in him again and he checked out of the ward and left to california. That was a 3 day drive and he only had 300 dollars in his bank account. Of course he ran out of gas and money and had to be picked up by a friend.
A lot of people in the Bipolar community have suggested he has a mix of Borderline PErsonality Disorder and Bipolar. But only with him getting checked by a Dr will we ever know. Not sure if he even wants to face that possibiity.
Either way I would be here for him. Of course I would set some bounderies for my own well being. But I'm more than certain that if we find the right Dr with the right prescripton he will be ok. It is up to him.
