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It occurs to me how much I'd depended on W for the overall structure, direction, etc. of the family.

Seems like before, a day with my W was a day fulfilled... even if we just sat around the house. Feels like I'm now searching for that daily "event" or something that makes the day worth something. In other words, I'm still adjusting. The boys are the focus now.


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Just kind of exploring my thoughts and feelings - but I want to get to a point where this is all more than the days passing. The days don't feel painful anymore, that's good. But I still feel lonely and lacking real enthusiasm. I suppose I'll get there.


Wow Bill, you are describing exactly how I'm feeling too. Your situation is very similar to mine in many ways.