I kind of like that I don't have a TV - they're reading a lot.
Took them over to the house both days, walked the dog; spent some time throwing the football. Took them to the bookstore yesterday.
Yeah, fully functional single parent - grocery shopping, meals, laundry, etc.
It occurs to me how much I'd depended on W for the overall structure, direction, etc. of the family.
Seems like before, a day with my W was a day fulfilled... even if we just sat around the house. Feels like I'm now searching for that daily "event" or something that makes the day worth something. In other words, I'm still adjusting. The boys are the focus now.
I did call her yesterday for a brief conversation, to say "Happy Valentine's Day." She had gone to Napa valley with her mother.
Talked to family and friends on the phone.
Just kind of exploring my thoughts and feelings - but I want to get to a point where this is all more than the days passing. The days don't feel painful anymore, that's good. But I still feel lonely and lacking real enthusiasm. I suppose I'll get there.
