Thank you CW. I am not sure my H will notice that I stopped calling - not sure if it even matters. His sister told me that when he makes up his mind, there may be nothing I can do..
I need to refocus on the GAL and attempt to put this man out of my head. I saw my IC yesterday (yes, on Sunday, On V-Day) and she gave me homework:
1 - Read and focus on the Serenity Prayer 2 - Draft a list of the qualities that has changed in my H 3 - See my medical doctor and pursue anti-depressants 4 - Listen to a meditation CD (provided to me by my IC)
The CD is suppose to teach breathing techniques to help me calm down when I feel anxious. In addition, although I do not wish to take antidepressant meds, if it will help me keep from thinking about my H and angonizing 24 hours a day, I guess I should try it.
I am off of work today and plan to see my Dad. I may take him out to lunch and for a long drive. He can keep my mind on what's happening back in the old neighborhood. Good idea?
OLD THREAD-http://tinyurl.com/y98nuty Me 44 H 51 T 15 yrs M 9+ yrs No Kids "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."
