no idea what to do......

[gman]

so each day i feel her hate growing for me - i can see it in her eyes. she cornered me before work this am and continued on how can we live like this - she doesn't love me, has no feelings for me and how can i be with a wife that doesn't want to have sex with "you".

i may have read inbetween the lines and opened my big mouth because of my stupid emotions in control - said "not with me, but someone else".....yeah that didn't help.

she is very afraid of the future i can see, she told me that she does want to be married to someone she loves(unfortunately she does not love me).

i reminded her that life is hard, and that she is at a cross-road in her life....the road she chooses is up to her and her alone. she then told me that there is no way i would make it easy for her if she filed for a divorce....hope i did the right thing by telling her my true feelings -

"of course i am not going to make it easy, i am fighting for my family and my kids, i am not going to just roll over like i have for so long and let you get your way. you have to do what you have to do, and each choice will have it's own results"

she tells me i am laying guilt on her by saying this - am i? i do not mean to, but it is the truth.

a quote from Val Kilmar in the movie "Heat" describes my feelings best for my W "my sun rises and sets with her"