Is there hope?

[chatterbug]

Hey Maynard. Here is an opportunity to work through rock bottom yourself. And use yourself to pull yourself up. No dependencies on drugs or alcohol. And if your going into them. STOP. Seek help for those issues right away.

I think that since you cannot stop yourself from contacting your wife you need to delete her number off your cell. That way the next time you go to send a text. Guess what you are going to have to type out the number. This will give you a chance to think. Do I need to do this? Is this on my list of important items.

You did the list right? Or did you wallow in self-pity? ( I set up pictures around a room and said good-bye to each one and drank a very nice bottle of red wine )
If you have not done the list. Do this today. Make it your 180 for the day.

I am shining a light towards you my friend. Get off your butt and get moving again. Reflect all you want. But make sure its productive and that your using this to work through your grief.
I have nothing more to say on your reflection weekend.

Go back to being DIM and do not ask any more questions about her life. She is on her path now. You are not a knight in shining armour. Let her hit rock bottom. She knows you love her. So let her feel those feelings without you reminding her.

p.s. have you thought of doing some volunteer work ? Just something to show your self worth to yourself. And you will be helping people as well.