Cease fire! You've been one of the most insightful persons that ever posted to me! FOUR YEARS on the boards! From the depths of suicidal depression to an incredibly content person looking forward to the future. All because of posters like YOU!
We all get those moments. As long as you keep it as a MOMENT and not a LIFE STYLE. You're too smart for that kind of stuff.
What happened to your "fitness" lifestyle? You were doing a good job for a while! Are you out there at least walking? Exercise is such a great cure for the blues. My gym membership is the best $350 I spend every year! Not to go "Jack LaLanne" on you, but I'm thinking if you change your lifestyle, you'll change some of your outlook.
OK....that'll be $185.00 for the advice! Bargain-basement Connecticut prices!