Thanks so much OP. You don't know how badly I needed to read those words.
I hesitated to post that one, but figured putting it out there to give you guys more background and get incites and opinions would help me.
Changes are happening in me. Some are necessary because I'm living without H and realize that the odds of him not returning are high. Some are because I'm discovering who I am again, and that's kinda fun.
Detaching has helped a lot. It has started to get to a point that I've stepped back so much that it's almost like watching a movie. Some of it is heartbreaking, but other parts are almost comical. Hope that makes sense.
I know I will make it. Lived single after college and made it just fine. This time around I have kids who bring me comfort and joy. We did a good job raising them and I feel sorry that H will be missing out on so much with them. I think he will be surprised when and if the fog finally lifts to see all the changes in the kids and I.
Thanks again, and hope things are going well for you.
