Thanks guys, those who unfortunately had to deal with cancer, know these tests and wating for the results every 3-6 months and the outcome and the hopes and the miracle that rarely comes, is a process that burdens your heart 24 hours a day, non stop...
It is a long weekend here, we fly kites and eat shrimps, octapuss shells, etc etc
Things with H are... so and so. We have again hit a low. We talked last night and the result is the same as always. He wants me to trust him and he feels like a failure. He said I "make him feel like a mistake, he is a mistake in this house". Of course that means that I am failing to be the good wife I am trying to be.
No Vday gifts from him. I gave him the 5 LL book cause I believe it would help us immensely to be on the same page with that. I dont know if he will take the time to read it.
He again said "how can I be making love to you when we are like THIS?". Hmmm, he is right in a way but on the other hand if we did make love, make we wouldnt be like THIS. It's the egg and the chicken once again...
Dont know what to do. Dont know how to get through to him. I guess I can stop trying.
My kids are happy and life goes on.
I wrote a letter to my brother telling him he shouldnt feel responsible for everything concerning my dad's treatement etc, I am in it with him as well. I wrote him I want him to take care of himself an his family and we'll do our best reagrding our dad, I told him I love him very much... K
