it's a hard balance to pull back, i guess i see in her mind what is too far. i have not been mean or an ass, but compared with the old me, i was shorter with conversation, did not check in with her and have not been doing things that she can pay for.
do i give up on busting the EA for now?
it was a financial discussion, and it converted into R/EA talk. it makes much more financial and logistical sense for both of us that she would stay in the house for several months while we get ducks in a row. but, i can't be a "friend" in this home while she is having a R with OM, that is what she wants. she wants me to go out and date so she is justified in doing the same. there are parts of me that want to do just that, thinking that might be a 180 and shake her up.
she outright lied to me tonight. i asked her point blank if she talked to him yesterday, and i know she did, and she said no. she is sick, acting like a total addict.
do i try harder to bust it up or do i sit on my intel and wait until they finally meet for PA and bust it then?
M=37 W=40 Married=10,T=12 D=10 D=8 WAW Bomb=1/12 EA confirmed=1/13 EA exposed=1/27 Current In house separation
