had a really nice time with my H tonight. we met for a drink and talked for a while like we were just on a date, nothing really about our R until a bit later in the night. it felt good to see him and talk to him again. he got choked up a few times, said he was sorry for some things, and i did, too. he also kissed me. he said he's still not mentally in the place where i am, but we're definitely not talking D right now and he cried when he told me how much he missed me.
he asked me at the end of the night if i wanted to meet for coffee or dinner later this week, which i said i'd have to see what my schedule looked like but that i'd love to. so. i know i am no where near out of the woods, but...i feel good. i enjoyed being with him, we laughed and just sitting across the table from him at one of our favorite restaurants just felt better than i've felt in a while. i know he can see the changes i'm making, and i know how much i can feel them!
don't know what will happen from here, but i have a sense of hope that i haven't really had in a while.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
