feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

Last night was ok but H drank way too much and made a couple rude comments to me in front of everyone..stuff like "that's your problem" and some other comments I won't mention right now cuz I'll be pissed but I'm sure everyone there thought he was rude and not cool.

We got home at 2:20 and he went to his corner and I to mine. He went to sleep with his blackberry as I had to get up at 4 to turn the tv off.

This morning my friend came and brought me pink tulips, champagne and a card. I'm glad because it felt pretty crappy that H didn't even get a card. He said in front of the friend "hey lets go get something to eat" I said, "no." (sorry but after last night and not even a card this morning) why on earth would I wanna go out to breakfast with him? I mean seriously.

After friend left he wanted me to change to go get something to eat and I said, "naw I don't wanna go" he said "fine I'll take the kids." I said, "we aren't just here for whenever you feel like it." The kids didn't really want to go with him and he got pissed. He left without saying goodbye to anyone. He's still gone.

I took the kids to lunch and we walked down and had a ice cream afterwards. It was nice. I didn't miss him once and usually I do.

I have no idea where he could have gone on valentines day when everyone has plans so....again he is unaccountable for where he is...as usual.

I'm tired.