I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Blown away,
Thanks!! I think I'm there. I think the sadness I feel now is for the big picture changes - starting over. Its exciting and scary all at the same time. Its giving up the things that were important to me - like only ever getting married once, like telling my kids that their dad is the only person I've ever made that commitment to, those kinds of things. I don't miss H - not the man he was when he left. I certainly can't stand the man he is now - I never would have given that man the time of day.

I sent the email. Nothing but business - no emotion at all. We will see what the response is. Its time for me to boldly go where I've never gone before and STAND up to him. He's dictated everything to this point and I've let him. I let him because I needed time to deal with my issues and get to a place where I felt strong mentally and emotionally. I live in that place now. I have the tools to deal with everything and I've worked damn hard to get here. I've put alot of time and energy into becoming a FABULOUS me. I feel good about that.

H made his choices and I've made mine. I don't regret mine.

I feel surprisingly good - Liberated almost. I've done what I can and the rest will work itself out - I have faith that the right things will be there for me, when I need them.

Happy Valentines Day everyone. I can't express how much you all and this board mean.

T