I love her, she is so selfish and she and her mom are not right.
Anyway, D's been riding me about freedom and said the cnslr that i filed the motion for and paying for said her and I's relationship isn't healthy.
Police dropped D off of course it was my wkend, she and girlfriend flat played me, went to wifes house with wife out of town, had party, fight ensued whatever.
Doesn't matter vs my better judgement,but trying to get her and I going, I got hosed, just like when she smoked here.
3 am cops left I flat f'ing came unglued. 10pm I have a pastor over, we pray for all of us, I text her be good, not going to ask please, she said I know Dad, love you.
That's how she repays me.
I SPANKED THE EVER LIVING HELL OUT OF HER, I grabbed her not to hurt, but she wasn't going to run. AND I BENT HER OVER MY LAP AND I WENT OFF ON THAT RIGHT BUTT CHEEK OF HERS UNTIL MY HAND HURT.
Today she's admitting a spanking but last night it was hit me, I am about at the end of my rope with her and wife.
I laid down with D wrapped around her we woke at about 10.
I'm back to love/logic with her, she said that's how she'd rather learn said great let this divorce get final, but have to quit burying me.
Speaking of bury, she and wife are so against me, she said Dad, you made a decision for me, I didn't want to go to cnslg,YEAH RIGHT AND YOUR MOM'S NOT HAVING A MLC,"That I made sure it would backfire on you Dad, Mom said I didn't need to go, you didn't ask me, I made sure I was going to pay you back."
I told her the truth, D love you, love ur mom, don't like any of this, but here it is another day, that u or she has flat F'd me. Call ur mom, she gets back in town, pick you up, you clean up what u did at the house and honey love you, but our relationship is not healthy to me, I'm not even selling cars.
Told D, really I'm at wits end, did nothing but put the 3 of u ahead of myself and 2 most important girls in my life determined to ruin me and my good name.
I had her right down what she wants I wrote down what I want, I wrote down her input, I'll show it to the cnslr that really wants my side of the story, D doesn't know it.
Told D all she's doing is making the fact going to fight for her harder.Not hurting her now,it will when ur 25 yrs old and wake up n go maybe i shouldn't have been that way, but right now I love you, but I don't like you, read her list, read my list made notes and gotta love a teen "we're good."
My butt, we're good. Who knows what tomorrow will bring...
New job, I'm talking to that cnslr, just documenting the stuff D and wife pull.
I'm a tough s o b. But man this is nuts, it was bad enough when we were married.
Oh cops had to drop her off, because I didn't hear the phone, Dang it!!Anyway there was a text from wife, I let her know, did spank her, did take her phone, DO NOT TALK TO ME, be her friend, I am going to parent.
This am another text is she ok?does she have her phone?and something else, replied with all yeses and texted what cops told me to her, think only thing about me was I laid with D all night, and D acted the same to me as did to her on Tgiving when wife brought her to me at 2 am.
Reread chap 9 of teenage love languages.
I am totally in a Win/Lose relationship in all of this.
I'll be allright, it's got to get better, I mean this stuff has got to be happening for a reason.
What really mad at is just like work, the drama has got me where didn't get anything done, it's almost 3 pm and not one thing on my to do list is done.
