One thing I've struggled with a lot since July when I moved into my apartment (I spent the first couple of months living with a friend) is that this is the first time in my life I've lived alone. And I'm still not totally. I have the girls over for at least 45 minutes 10 days out of every two-week and five overnights every two weeks.
Another thing I'm struggling with is the rejection factor. When I had my epiphany last March that I hadn't been loving unconditionally and I realized the little ways I held W at arm's lenth, I felt like I fell in love with her all over again.
We had a great talk in March and for three weeks it was if things were back to normal and we were looking forward to the future again. And then the littlest thing closed her heart again and ever since, the rejection factor is just sooo painful.
So yes, Gardener, there's lots of reasons to just let last night go. But I also ask myself if I'm letting life go by as well.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
