After a comfortable morning 'sleep' which happened unexpectedly, I asked W if she could live happy with me and all the fighting that we have. She said yes. But, she said she couldn't live with doubt that I love her and with being treated in ways that she feels are judgemental of her personality.
I'm not there yet, not sure if I will ever be. I think after Retrouvaille, if I am still not able to see her and love who she is, I will start pulling away. For now, we are trying to connect while knowing that D is to be expected if we can't by May, but we aren't filing any papers yet (thank God...hope).
