no idea what to do......

[gman]

what a difference 3 days makes....one heck of a backslide...

W suddenly started yelling at me how she isn't happy and will never change. told me that our night of intimate touching was just her checking to see if she had any feelings...and she says it didn't change anything (feel like she just did it out of pitty for me now)

enter last night - began to tell me that she would be better off dead....had to nearly break the bathroom door down when i heard her in the medicine cabinet...caught her with pills in hand and had to physically take them from her.

this am - screaming that she isn't happy and doesn't want "this" anymore.

told her last night that no matter what happens between her and i that i would never want her dead and that her kids need her now more than ever....hope it sinks in, but then she proceeded to yell at me for trying to put thoughts in her head and telling her what she is thinking.

i fear for her safety....do i let her father know her actions? she would be furious about me telling anyone about our problems right now....

back to square one...do i just go very dark and pretty much ignore her anymore? It is hard as we live together and our kids are always near - can't really afford to pay a babysitter so limited on how to GAL other than reading and exercising...

think LRT is my only option at this point...don't really expect any replies, had to get this out of my head.