VALENTINES DAY COMING!!

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No flowers,
just bought a generic card from the kids to her.. No mushy stuff at all..

As for the EA, the other night she told me there is absolutely nothing going on... I actually believe her, but I did tell her that I beleive their was about 1 year ago. I also told her that although she may not think there is anything going on that OM is still pursuing her. She had nothing to say.
I also remember learning here that we shoul donly beleive 50% of what thye say..

A part of me wants to contact OM and tell him that if he looks or talks or continues with the persuit of my W, that I would contact his wife and employer about it.. Furthur more if he mentions to her that I contacted him directly,I will still blow the wistle on him. I will find out either way..
The reason of contacting the employer is becasue he is a manager. Not her direct manager but a manager. I know that when I was in the corporate world this was frowned upon.. Not very professional.

Strange thing this morning.. Last 2 nights she has not slept in our bed.
I didnt wish her good morning, just got up and got busy.. Tried to keep my mind on other things and look happy.
This morning as I was washing couple of plates left from last night, W came down, did some small talk about our S14 hockey practice this am. As I was washing away she made her way to me and kissed me good morning.. I will not pretend that it didnt hurt when she did that. After everything.. Wow..
I am going on in my mind that my marriage is over and expect the worst. Its the only way in my mind that I can DB/ dark I guess.
As I mentioned before, I do want my M to work, and want her in my life forever!..

Somehow I have to continue to be strong and focus on me and the kids for now.. Detaching is the key, I know this. Also, no more R talk..
Thanks for listening.. Old Pilot, ROBX, Gardner,cutter.. Your support has been awesome, and like all of us here just trying to learn. Must learn to crawl again before I can walk then run..
Baby steps......