IRMAC, Definitely see your doctor and discuss this situation w/him. Your medication may need to be adjusted. I'm glad you are feeling better today. Holidays can be rough.
It's time to start thinking about what you want to do w/your life. You mentioned your appearance in your posting. Take out some magazines and see if you can find a nice haircut that would flatter your face and go w/it. Sometimes just changing your appearance just a bit will give you the lift you need to make you feel a bit better about yourself. It sounds like you've gotten yourself in a rut w/a bit of depression going on.
It's one step at a time. Make a list of those things that you would like to completely change or improve on and start working on them one by one.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
