Yep,I am not sure what is wrong with me but one thing is for sure is that I am totally done with this. If he wants his family, she leaves. I will not tolerate this anymore.
Thank you everyone for your input. I have also met with our couples counselor and spoke with a DB coach last night. Everyone is of the same opinion that "you are letting this happen" "why are you letting this happen" "why are you letting him have his cake and eat it too etc.".
I wish it were fear of rejection, that would be easier to understand but it never has been. I really think I want to protect him, protect him from anymore pain after all of this. Sounds dumb really, but that is much more likely. I am just fine on my own actually and enjoy being by myself a lot. Always have.
I am done. I am currently fuming as he has not called me yet and I have no idea when to expect my son home.
This stinks but again I appreciated the situation pushing me even further. I am pleased to be at this point as I feel very strong.
I will keep you all updated as this unfolds. I am done being walked on while another woman "plays house" while we "work on our marriage".
